poughkeepsie is the new athens

i kept a detailed journal all last year that i've been intermittently leafing through on the rare occasion i have some free time this semester. i tried to start it back up again when i got back to campus in august, but the words didn't flow out of me like they had all last fall/spring. i suppose i've been bottling up a lot of what i felt this semester, feeling entirely too much to dedicate the time to trepan them from my skull daily. i jotted down some scattered entries in my new academic journal, across the aisle from my class notes and sketches, collaging together some semblance of a mind map of what everyone and everything has meant to me this year. i guess it's similar to the presence i've left behind here.

if you zone out looking at one spot for long enough, your vision starts to blur into this kind of warbling TV-static that your eyes constantly want to correct. the only other visual experience i could compare it to would be when you're half-asleep and start to dream: you're in bed, and all of the sudden you get these super vivid visual cues that disappear when you try and register what you're looking at. a friends face, a doorway in a class building, someone you haven't seen since last year, gone in an instant when your brain remembers nothing's really there.

i guess what i've been learning are new ways to look and process things- works of art, political apparatuses, my day-to-day experiences. everything is coming and going. i'm a different person now than i was yesterday, because my perspective is ever-shifting. processing anything is a start towards becoming someone.

acid - jockstrap

take it with you - cameron winter

goodbye / trouble - greg mendez

weird circles - tera melos

grass is greener - bassvictim

smokey - red house panters

townies - wednesday

i feel love - donna summer

today - the innocence mission

surrender - suicide

system - prewn

oh god - jerskin fendrix